flight of death

I’ll stop apologising for the long gaps in my illustrious shamefully underrated blogging history. There’s no point putting it in each post. So, what have I been doing since I last blogged? I better reread so that I know when I last blogged… AH! Got my January module results back, did crap. Why is that? Let’s see me try and defend it:

• Lack of revision
• Illness
• Crap start to the year; taking exams in subjects I did not choose to do
• Unhappiness

I think that covers everything. I am resitting the exams in June (thus doubling my workload for the summer, but that’s my own fault!) where I will hopefully get A grades across the board.

I was chosen by senior management, teaching staff and peers as Chairman of the School Council. Was extremely disappointed at first (to an extent known by none except for myself) but have since accepted it and look forward to doing what I can. Yes we can? Ha.

I was in a school production of Much Ado About Nothing; something that was most enjoyable and I have met some great people through it. Hopefully going to Thorpe Park with the cast and crew in a couple of weeks. This took up a lot of time and therefore meant my workload went through the roof (and my sleep levels through the floor) but I don’t regret it at all.

Nearly all of my friends are prefects next year. Fantastic!

Could really have done with another coffee today… there are just things going on and one wasn’t enough. Starbucks fifth with the gang would have been brilliant but had to do some outside work and didn’t have time to shoot my body up with another shot of caffeine. I have this horrible feeling that I’m slowly floating into an abyss that will be horrifically destructive (somewhat related to the coffee but the link will be lost on all but myself) and I should stop myself… or should I?

Scenarios:

• Fall into the abyss, all hell breaks loose and there’s no gain. LIKELY.
• Fall into the abyss, all hell breaks loose and there’s a significant gain. LESS LIKELY.
• Fall into the abyss, moderate breaking loose of hell and there’s no gain. UNLIKELY.
• Fall into the abyss, moderate breaking loose of hell and there’s a significant gain. VERY UNLIKELY.

• Skate around the surface of the abyss; things stay constant with no gain. MOST LIKELY SCENARIO.
• Skate around the surface of the abyss; things stay constant apart from a significant gain. MOST PREFERABLE. UNLIKELY.

Falling into the abyss is slightly out of my control, although I control it ultimately. Not going to happen; likeliness is relative. Last two scenarios are the most likely… I’d much prefer the last one but the second to last one is very probable. Things will blow over I guess… they always do.

EASTER HOLIDAYS. Lots to do, couple of parties, seeing friends from school and further afield, working, doing lots of homework and revision, extra-curricular stuff and hopefully some sleep and free time? I forgot exercise. That too.

So, back to the essence of the blog: Is it a golden honey trap? Is it laced with cyanide? Is it a sweet nectar and nothing more? Deadly? Any of these are possibilities… and possibilities are always possible. Oh, how profound. I come out with stupider statements every day. I wish I could read people’s minds; that way I could always know people’s motives, intentions and feelings.